feeling sooooo blueeeee..............
ya Allah... You really are The Almighty and The One who can turn around human's heart.... bener-bener... tidak teruji keimanan seorang hamba kalau belum menghadapi suatu cobaan...

phew... who knows that the day that is (suppossed to be - according to me) so beautiful could turn grey and blue just because of one person and one statement... the hardest thing to accept that this person is not even part of my close friend circle nor family circle.. it's just... phew.. so hard to say...

it's been a few months that I can't stand his behaviour.. i think that's just me being too high standart or the obsessive compulsive part of me had taken my true identity :D but.. I guess today is the explosion... it's not the first time that he scolded or yelled me in the forum or in front of other people.. but today it's the hardest...

well thank Allah I was rescued by a phone call so i have a very strong excuse permission from the meeting.. couldn't stand it anymore to hold my tears... trying to cover it using make up...

well.. this too sensitive part of me was offended and feeling unworthy... probably because it was in a forum.. my self confidence was offended.. but well..well.. guess what, probably i had been offending his self confidence also....

Allah the Almighty.. please help me to control my emotion, since the next meeting is going to start in an hour.. and please Allah.. help me to ease the pain and learn from it..